We were so young, so clean, so unaware of the Future, but I’m Present for it NOW!! I usually don’t post personal pictures but this one really spoke to me.
A friend of mine came across some pictures I’d left over some years back and I, like anyone else had to look through them. I smiled, laughed, got a little choked up over some but for the most part they were all beautiful memories. Then, I came across this picture. I tried to bypass after gazing but I couldn’t. Their eyes called out, which made me take notice. I thought of where I was mentally at that time and wanted to revisit her, him, them and thought, if I could just go back to that moment I would warn them of a time they’ll face in life that I’ve called ‘the valley’ I know it sounds strange but that’s what I felt when this picture touched my hand. We,my brother Cortez and I, were attending my cousin Germaine’s wedding. Our outer appearance screamed we’re ready, focused, and determined but our eyes, the keys to our souls, spoke confusion, distracted and make-believe. (Side note) I’m not the ‘me’ I was in the picture but I love and respect her for all she’s had to endure. She fought with just a glimmer of hope, no real direction, but that little bit of hope has gotten her to ME. Praise God!
My desire in sharing this is hopes that someone who may be experiencing ‘the valley’ of what I’ve gone through can learn to embrace the journey of it, knowing all of it, good, bad, or indifferent, is working for good.
I would tell us, my brother Cortez and I, that we don’t know much of anything and what we think we know to be truth will change over time. I would tell us to live life without limitations and be free in being who we creatively are for that will bring us true happiness. I would warn us that everyone that says they believe in us don’t, but don’t feel any heartbreak, it’s best this way. I would warn us that the very people we depended on then will not be around for us to continuously lean on but do not despair, it’s best this way. That the hard times are really here to show us what we’re made of, what’s inside that needs to come out. It’s not to kill us or make us give up or feel defeated, but to show us the valley times are when we become completed. It’s a time of testing with the benefits being learned lessons of never repeating that same test. It’s a time when you learn that decisions based on mastered emotions were birth from overcoming roller coaster emotions first. It’s when we learn we don’t need anyone or anything and solely trust in ourselves. We leaned this because other’s have either gone on to glory or turned their backs and walked away like they were never there. It’s when we find our purpose and define our destiny because we’re now isolated without distractions and can finally hear. It’s when we learn the true meaning of faith and seeing things unseen spiritually manifest physically. This only happened because we had so much hate and were determined to prove the naysayers wrong. It’s when we learn the meaning of discernment and how our choices based on discernment is our own. It’s also when we learn our choices of yesterday, good or bad, shapes our tomorrow. We learn so much during the valley times and it’s all due to some hardship along the way so don’t give up, don’t try to stop it or speed it up, or get stuck thinking it will always be this way. Don’t let go of yourself. You MUST keep going because each test shows you, YOU. You can breeze through this if you stop fighting and start following, believing and trusting in you..
Always remember the warning given before take off of any flight. They advise, in case of emergency FIRST place on your oxygen mask THEN go and assist someone else. The moral of the story is ‘ you can’t help anyone until you’ve helped yourself’. ‘The valley’ is strategic in teaching you to help yourself. Embrace it – it’s all working for your good anyway!
I love you,