As the two of us sat down to eat waiting for the others to join, we discussed corporate prayer or individual blessings of our meals. I was a little hesitant with the thought because to those around me, I may seem a little different these days, even in my spiritual walk. So I agreed we could pray individually for the comfort of all. My journey is so beautiful. I am enjoying it fully. Each day I learn patience with patience. I know it sounds strange but it’s joy in being patient while learning patience. I incorporate heartfulness meditation and cleansing. I listen to the earth, I admire nature, I love each moment of life. I understand I can’t get back what’s past but I can create a better tomorrow by being present in the present moment so everything has meaning, even if its minimum. I feel peaceful, grounded and ready. The others arrived and overheard the end of our conversation. My son, being the guest of honor, decided he wanted me to bless the food. How could I argue, the King had spoken. Of course I stayed true to what I’m learning daily and blessed the food, possibly leaving others uncomfortable.
So after blessing the food the hot sauce bottle fell from the table but caught before hitting the floor. My son commented ‘That’s a sign, you didn’t say something right, something was left out.’ I laughed but inside I was in deep despair. Had I done something wrong, was it a sign? Am I traveling the wrong path, is this a distraction?’ I didn’t think too much more about it and just enjoyed the night. We laughed, took pictures, and pretty much talked about each other jokingly. Our night ended, we hugged, said our ‘love you’s’ and went to our destinations.
I made it home, sat down for just a few moments and thoughts began entering my mind. I let it filter in the back while I focused on looking over my daughter’s cap and gown packet. She picked through quickly so it left me time to resurface the back of the head thoughts forward. I was wandering and confused so I began talking and God replied from the very lips of my daughter. She burst into song “Very superstitions, the writings on the wall, very superstitious, the letters bout to fall. If you believe in the things that you don’t understand, then you suffer. Superstition aint the way!” I allowed each word to penetrate my spirit and began speaking out loud the things I could understand vs superstition.
‘I understand that we are created from the very things of the earth. I understand that energy doesn’t die. I understand that we came from a greater Creator. I understand that the very essence of our Creator is the make up of me. I understand that since I am made up of the Creator and the Creator has power to create, then I’m powerfully creative too. I created life, two beautiful blessings. I created a book and titled it ‘Darkness Within Me’. I created ‘MdMTshirt’s. I created thoughts turned into reality. I created ‘The Fammy’s Awards’. I created a design for my MdMDresses, I created, and my words were finally heard…I created. I did what I set a lane for me to do. I act just like my Creator and that is what I understand. It’s when I believe in the things that I don’t understand, I suffer.’ I turned to face my daughter and asked why that song. She said, “I don’t even know why I sang that. That wasn’t even me”. I smile and thanked God for the answer. I knew at that moment I’m on the right path. I can’t be distracted.
I am thankful for this newness, it’s refreshing, it’s like intoxication of spiritual freedom. I’m always on a high.
Whoever you are, I’m here to let you know it’s okay to be different, to walk a new path, to embrace and travel your journey alone. Yes, we are all made up of the same things and we are all different for the same reason. (I always have to say some riddled Tracy-ism-!) Meaning, be true to you. It’s okay if you don’t want to do what the majority’s doing as long as you’re being authentic and not hurting anyone else. Take this present moment and think about what you’ve created and manifested with just a mere thought. It may not seem much but when you really think about it, you’ve done something amazing; you created!! You have power! There’s greatness inside you waiting to be created, get started.!! You did it before.-
Allow what you understand to lead and guide and leave the superstition to just a Stevie Wonder song.