Thank you Frankie Lon, I receive it!!!!……

It’s because of you a lot of people are ok, but are you ok?

That was the question of the night during Keyshia Cole and her mother’s heart to heart conversation. I didn’t get a chance to watch Keyshia Cole’s ‘All In” reality show when it originally aired so this may seem like yesterdays news to some but as for me, it’s fresh and relevant in this present moment. The reality show is basically about her reality of life, family, journeys and forgiveness. I enjoy it for the most part because I’m a fan of Frankie, Keyshia’s mother. Frankie’ is one of a kind. She’s the life of the party, full of wisdom but her past, like most of us, keeps her bound. Her past involves drug, alcohol, mental and physical abuse. She doesn’t allow it to stop her but it does haunt and bound her from time to time.  She’s a fighter however and I believe will go on and minister to the masses; so when she speaks soberly, I listen.

2006 BET Hip-Hop Awards - Red CarpetYou have to look at the big picture. The picture has God first, yourself, then family but the picture is not complete without a frame. You have to frame that picture, close it in. Everything you have is because you worked for it. You don’t owe nobody nothing, not even me, but you do owe yourself.  You owe yourself the best, the best! And don’t settle for less. Hold your title, you’re the champ! You didn’t make the mistakes I made. God is good all the time!”

My spirit got so much joy and empowerment from that conversation. I took every bit of that in. God has a way of getting a word to you if you’re willing to open up and hear it.

I owe myself the best and I will not settle for less. I am the champ and will hold my title. I’m not my mother’s mistakes. I am the completion of the big picture. God is good all the time!

Are you ok????

Much Love,

Tracy B


I’ve said too much……

Whoop em! It wont kill em, it just might save their life.

When you know better and still choose to do wrong how can you get upset when consequences become your reward? How can you blame God for your decision to do the wrong that everyone else appeared to have gotten away with?  How can you say God is not for you when you deliberately disobeyed what you know is right? Why are you mad with God? How can you be? 

images-74I was sitting in a funk of anger and borderline depression. I couldn’t believe where I was mentally and emotionally. I mean, I pray and do what I know to be right but I’m getting evil in return. In my anger I approached God and spoke, ‘I thought You said you reap what you sow? Well, I’m sowing goodness and I know it’s goodness but You see how I’m being repaid? You also said that I should surrender all to You and I’ve done that over and over again but that aint reap any reward. You even said I should trust You and You see where that’s gotten me. I’m right here again, angry and borderline depressed. I’m bout ready to just say to hell with all of this!’

“What do you think you really deserve? What have you done so great that you should be rewarded abundantly? What have you created that I should bow and worship? What star did you name, tell Me so that I can hear all your wishes and grant them. What cloud did you form so that I can remove the dark one you say hovers over and replace it with your glorious creation? What darkness can you hide in so that I wont see your sins? I AM. I SEE. I KNOW ALL THINGS AND AM ALL THINGS. I Am your refuge, your strong tower, your fortress. I Am covering you with My body. I shelter you and keep you from dangers seen and unseen. How can you blame ME for what you have done. How can you disrespect My time in your messiness? Why would you tell Me what you will or wont do? Are you My God? Shall I serve you? Shall I bow down and worship the ground I’ve created that you walk on? Don’t be foolish, My word is truth, you reap what you sow. You haven’t surrendered because you still lack trust. You lack trust because you worry? You worry because you haven’t surrendered. To surrender all fully is a one time confession, not something you do when you feel all hope is lost. Get over yourself. I Am your Father and you belong to Me and when you’re out of line expect chastisement.”

God chastens those He loves! If you’re wrong expect consequences but you’re not alone, God is always with us.

Much Love,

Tracy B


Whatever you find wrong, remove it!!….

O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me.

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit them together in my mother’s womb.  Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! It is amazing to think about. Your workmanship is marvelous—and how well I know it.  You were there while I was being formed in utter seclusion! You saw me before I was born and scheduled each day of my life before I began to breathe. Every day was recorded in your book!

How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly! I can’t even count how many times a day your thoughts turn toward me.  And when I waken in the morning, you are still thinking of me! I can never be lost to your Spirit! I can never get away from my God! 

You know when I sit or stand. When far away you know my every thought. You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am. You know what I am going to say before I even say it. You both precede and follow me and place your hand of blessing on my head. This is too glorious, too wonderful to believe!

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test my thoughts. Point out anything you find in me that makes you sad, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

Much Love,

Tracy B



I’ll praise YOU myself…..

I don’t need the rocks to cry out and praise, I will give you all of me!

images-105God’s word is true. When He says the righteous will never be forsaken and his seed will never beg for bread, God means that. Everything He promised has come to pass and will continue to manifest quickly, as long as I believe, not doubt and apply my faith.  I believe God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly and above all I can ask, think or even imagine. God deserves our/my praise and our/my complete trust.

Since God is with me there’s nothing impossible for me.

Much Love,

Tracy B

Growing in my Groaning

The very things meant to defeat you God will use to bless you tremendously!

It seems no one is safe from the storms of life. If you’re living then you can expect to grow though some difficulty. Yes, I said grow through some difficulty, that’s how it should be. I know we all go through things but we don’t always grow through them. However, I’ve learned, through personal experience, that difficulty affords you the opportunity to grow. Why can’t we grow through everything – well because everything isn’t difficult. Most of the troubles we face are based on the decisions we’ve made, are making and will make.
So many things, out of my control, has taken place in my life. There were times I didn’t think I would make it through another day. There were times I didn’t want to make it through another day. But some kind of way I kept getting up, groaning and moaning the entire time. I didn’t want to share any of my sadness with anyone so I choose to only speak life, love and everything else positive. I wanted to remove everything and everyone negative from around me. I became isolated and lost control. I decided to let go of everything I thought was important and shift my focus on ‘doing me’. I cried and prayed a lot. I tried everything to find a happy place because I knew if I allowed one little slip up it would be just enough to bring me down.
images-105I didn’t realize God was teaching me some great lessons. I didn’t know removing negativity and only speaking life would give me new life. I didn’t realize continuing to get up was all God desired to continue to bring about a change. I didn’t realize my isolation allowed me to hear from God more than I ever have. I hadn’t realized giving up control gives me real freedom to be me. God used my tears as watering for the seeds I’ve planted and my prayers were commanding the Angels. By only seeking a happy place I’d shifted my mindset from poverty to prosperity in all things.

I never thought my groaning would produce growth that feels refreshingly NEW!

Learn the lesson in your pain. Believe me, it’ll be mind-blowing.

Much Love,
Tracy B