I’ve been a victim of my own mental disorder. I’ve moved in this order, that order and even out-of-order. I’ve had my questions, my doubts, my obstacles and even my tantrums with God. I told Him what I was going and not going to allow anymore. I said to Him plain and simple, ‘if you’re God then do something!” I meant every word of it. I didn’t care what He did, so I thought, but as long as He did something other than sit back and watch the continuous chaos in my life. I needed answers and after asking God and getting no reply, I figured it was time to step out and ask His disciples on this earth. I called on some of everyone I knew with spiritual council to assist me but they only said the obvious. I was tired of hearing what I already knew. I called them for something different, didn’t they understand that! They each had the same question, “Do you trust God?” They also had to same declaration, “It’s not your battle. You are not God!”. I never said I was God. I figured they didn’t understand my question so I asked God again.
“God, why is it that You play around with our lives when You already know the outcome? Why must I be Job? You know if I will curse You or not. And why can’t You just tell me if I’m going the right way or if I’m on the wrong path with things? You know I hate to waste time, Yours or mine. I pray, believe, expect and acknowledge You in all my ways but I lack direction along this path and You lack providing it for me. What’s so wrong with asking You that?”
“There’s nothing wrong with your question but there’s everything wrong with your attitude. It’s not about you at all. This battle is Mine, all Mine. The enemy is attacking you because you’re worth everything to Me. He is not attacking you, he is coming after My goods. Have you ever heard of a homeless person being robbed? No, because others see them as having little to no value; however Bill Gates will be robbed almost instantly. The same with you. You have worth, you have value, you have something of great uniqueness and the highest quality within you. I strategically placed it inside you. It’s for you and no one else can claim it. The enemy wants it for evil so he planted bad seed all around you, creating chaos, to destroy the profits of the harvest. Why wont he just kill the seed you ask? Well, he can’t uproot the seed because he’ll never have permission to touch the souls. He may come to steal, kill and destroy but what you are will always be! The seed has to deal with bad seed growing next to it, the soil being infected, dryness, imposters and hard ground but the seed will never change its form. This is why I say no weapon formed against you shall prosper. The profit is in the seed, not the surroundings.
The enemy felt worth in the earth when I created you and came challenging Me as if he could destroy My worth. He is at war with Me! This has nothing to do with you. This is not your battle. It’s all Mine! You are not Job, you’re just worthy! “
Count it all joy when you are tested having chaos all around you. God is in battle protecting your greatness. You shall reap it all when you trust God even in the presence of your enemies!