I continue to learn as I continue to listen.
God does and says things the way HE sees fit. I want God to just outright talk to me and let me know whats what so I can get this thing right. I get tired of being up one day and down the next three. I don’t question God’s existence but His motives of my existence. It’s crazy I know but just when I felt I couldn’t take another moment of anger God spoke
“And behold a woman diseased with an issue of blood twelve years came behind ME and touched the hem of my garment. She said within herself if she could only touch the hem she would be made whole. She pushed past everything and touched My hem. I turned to her and expressed her faith made her whole. Her persistence, her belief, her moving pass every obstacle to get to the source, made her complete that very hour.
And behold a ruler came explaining his daughter died but for Me to lay hands on her and she shall live. I went to the ruler’s home and the people stood there crying. They mourned hard for their loved one but I told them have faith, she is not dead but sleeping. They laughed, even tried to scorn Me. So I removed the naysayers and disbeliever from amongst Me and went into the room, grabbed the girl’s hand and she arose. And her fame spread abroad into all the lands. So blind men came next and I simply asked them if they believed. They both answered yes and I touched their eyes but faith opened them to see. Then a dumb man possessed with evil came. He couldn’t even speak but had faith to believe. Evil was cast far from him and he spoke and marvelled the multitude.
I’ve heard your cry and answered you but you didn’t understand. When will you say within yourself that if you could just touch My hem you will be made whole? It starts when you get negativity far from you so that I can move on your behalf. Faith operates, fear separates. I can’t work miracles without you working faith. The harvest is plenteous, but the labourers are few. You want the blessings but not the work associated. Your time is NOW there’s no need for delay. It’s dark but keep allowing ME to lead you. Close your eyes and relax because I’m carrying you. Now remove the old thoughts, habits, talk, hurts and open your eyes to NEWNESS. It’s all around you! Your faith has made you whole”
For behold the old has passed away and all things are made new.