Reflections of open heart surgery…..

“The heart is not in everything. You can’t just go around putting your heart in places it shouldn’t be” He said.

I thought about it for a second before replying. “There’s no way to separate one from the heart without the person losing existence. Without the heart one will die so I do believe the heart is in everything and all places. However, folk don’t always display love but as for me it’s all about love.” He smiled and replied with a plain and simple “Ok Mother Love!” I laughed and shook my head while rolling my eyes.

There use to be a time when I could care less  about anyone or thing but then God decided to perform open heart surgery on me. He placed me in a deep sleep and began the operations; however He didn’t use any type of pain meds. I felt everything. He pulled, pinched, removed, added, and clipped. I moaned, complained, cried, hollered, rebelled, and even threaten to just die but that didn’t stop Him for doing His best work. It was all said and done and there I stood wide awake. He smiled brightly while I stood puzzlingly. Blood was everywhere on Him but I was clean. He had this stone in His hand, a boulder looking thing. I couldn’t talk so I just pointed at it. He fed my curiosity.

“I’ve removed your heart of stone and replaced it with a heart of flesh. With this heart you will have feelings of compassion, gratitude, love, hurt, pain, love, and oh did I say love? You will be an emotional wreck at first but then it will all make sense if you allow the process to happen. It wont always feel right but I don’t make mistakes. Now go on and enjoy your new heart!”

Fast forward …I went from being called cold  and callous to being named Mother Love. God don’t make mistakes for now I see I’ve been processed!

It’s all about the heart of the matter!

Much Love,

Tracy B

 

It’s what I prayed for….

Happy Tuesday All!-)

 

I’ve been going through mental battles and to be honest some days I feel my spirit is going to lose. It’s like… GOD stand up, show up or I’m going to fall out. I know it’s just me cause everyone else is perfect, but me and my imperfections said just that to my FATHER GOD! #SpeakingUp4Me

So over the weekend I was sitting around cleaning and decided to go through my list of movies and this CD fell out. It was Jamal Bryant’s sermon entitled  ‘I Had To Date Him’.  I started laughing while loading the disc into my TV.  He said people come into your life for a reason, season and to expose a demon. Of course hearing that made me sit alert and pay close attention.  He ran it down to the core for me. He even called out every significant year of my life dealing’s with man. I sat in awe, mouth wide open, tears running down, body shaking, heart breaking but I sat attentively.

I thought about my life’s journey up to this point. I prayed “God, I can’t deal with all of this. Every man who played a significant part in my life is now suffering. I feel like Job and that’s not fair. Why should the enemy be able to come into your presence and request havoc on my life? Why should my friends and family turn away as if I smell of smoke having gone through the fire? Why I ???….. and then HE stopped me.

“My dearest one of whom I am well pleased. Please recall the days when you prayed and asked this of me. You said you wanted no control but complete trust. You said you wanted to know I was real. You said you desired to be kept and not conformed to the things of this world. You said I am your source, sustainer, and supplier. Well I did exactly what you desired and now you’re upset. Don’t worry or fret. It seems darkest right before dawn… The BEST IS YET TO COME!”

I’ve said all this to say… be careful what you pray for because God will give it to you just the way you’ve asked.

Much Love,

Tracy B

How will you handle the silence…….

Some days God is silent.

It’s not because there’s no longer love. It’s not because He has abandoned you. It’s not because you’ve done anything wrong but sometimes HE’s silent because you’ve done something right. You’ve listened, you’ve obeyed, you’ve walked in faith, you’ve loved in spite of the hate received and now it’s time to see how you will handle the silence.

Will you fall back into the mindset that God is angry or that He’s forsaken you? Or will you stand in confidence knowing that even in the silence God’s still speaking.

You gotta believe with all your being that God is ALWAYS speaking even when you don’t hear a word.

LOVE SPEAKS & CONQUERS ALL!

Much Love,

Tracy B

Creating my day…..

Happy Monday!-)

Imagine if you will with me today.  I was sitting in the movie theater when God started speaking. I of course searched for a pin in my purse and scribbled in the dark. I didn’t want to forget the importance of what HE spoke to my spirit in that moment.

“Your life is what you make of it. Truly you orchestrate of all this. I give daily presents for you to create so take advantage.”

“What do you mean by daily presents? Am I missing something? Or are you simply speaking of  giving me life each day?”

“Yes you’re almost there. I give you life but I present it as a blank piece of paper. The gift is that each day its brand new. No marks or mistakes of yesterday. It’s given to you each day to write out how it will turn out. I never use permanent markers. I only use tools with erasers so you can rewrite whatever you need to. Now I know how it’s going to all turn out based on what you’ve created.” 

“So I hold all the power?”

“I sure give good gifts!”

I chuckled a bit but realized I am truly blessed and if you’re reading this you are as well.

Start creating your life knowing you have power to do so.

Much Love,

Tracy B

This is how I know…..

How do I know God is real? I’m glad you asked…..

He woke me up this morning, what a blessing. He’s allowing me to see a day I’ve never seen before. He’s allowing me a chance to do things a different way and live this day to the fullest. He’s providing me brand new grace and mercy. He’s given me the activities of my limbs. I’m breathing oxygen without the need of a mechanical device. He gives me 100% of my income and only ask for 10% back giving me even more; meanwhile the government takes whatever they desire without asking my permission. He watches over my family keeping them safe from dangers seen and unseen. He allows the SON to shine and brighten my pathway. He gives me pretty flowers to look upon and smell on a daily basis. He surrounds me with love constantly from my beautiful children. He whispers sweet things in my ear all day and night. 

It’s just the little things He does that shows me He is indeed the real deal! Get to know HIM and you will never be the same.

Much Love,

Tracy B 

7Up anyone???

Good day to you and happy Monday.

Don’t let this day be dreadful. It’s a day you’ve never seen before. It’s a day specially designed for you. No matter what the weather is outside don’t allow it to reflect your joy inside.

I attended church service yesterday and fire was ignited within my soul. My spirit rejoiced from revelation after revelation. I finally got something that has been holding me back all my life. Do you know how light I feel about that? WOW!! pop pop fizz fizz oh what a relief it is!!

Once I received what God was saying to me I had to share it.

Stand UP- stop being shy allow the light to shine on all

Rise UP- don’t fear man when God has called you

Look UP- all your help comes from the FATHER no need to look down and out

Give it UP- let go of complacency and shake things up

Blow it UP - take your dreams by the wings and soar higher than you dare to dream

Turn UP-when it’s all said and done it’s party time

To be prepared is to allow the manufacture to process you! Once you’ve been processed you’ll be prepared! 

Much Love,
Tracy B

 

I might as well……

It’s Friday and all is well.

Today I celebrate life and life in abundance. It’s one that God has granted me to live as I desire so I might as well be great. I might as well smile and be happy. I might as well live worry free because I discovered getting bills in the mail wont kill me so it aint gone stress me. I might as well go for my dreams because I never know when God will turn off the lights and I dream no more. I might as well share the good news of what I’ve discovered because someone just might get it and decide to celebrate life with me. You might as well!!!!

Appreciate where you are, dream big, live without worry, love with trust, and respect others! And do it all in great abundance.

 

Much Love,

Tracy B

Not going back…..

Happy hump day!

Today I make this declaration for God has made all things new and I will follow HIM forward!

Much Love,

Tracy B

I love what I have…..

Until you accept the fact that you are fearfully and wonderfully made then you will NEVER appreciate the REAL YOU!

I was able to catch this on OWN and it was truly life changing.  God don’t make mistakes.

So what do you think?

Much Love,

Tracy B

Give to get…..

Happy Friday! I’m enjoying the process.

It’s trial after trial but I’m enjoying the process. Obstacle after obstacle but I’m enjoying the process. Struggle after struggle but I’m enjoying the process. Closed door after closed-door but I’m enjoying the process.  Bill after bill but I’m enjoying the process.

All I can do is think over the years of when responsibility first kicked in and how struggle came shortly after. Then I think of how I called out to God for help and He did just that. I found the process to be extremely difficult to deal with but when He blessed me I somehow appreciated the process. I was even thankful I’d went through all of that because it lead me to a great blessing. Now I sit here thinking about what I’m going through so I’ve called out for help and my oh my when I see this blessing it’s gonna be even bigger than these problems. I will sho nuff appreciate the process.

Food for thought

To whom MUCH is given MUCH MORE is required! 

No matter what God is taking you through, enjoy the process.  For at the end of it all is utopia and that’s a promise!!

Much Love,

Tracy B